Today I made Pad Ka Prao (Spicy Thai dish: Minced pork, fried egg & rice) for dinner. I really love this dish. And it’s very simple to make, too. You just stir-fry ground meat or tofu in garlic and chili paste (You just pound the garlic and chilies together roughly in a mortar. Or you can finely chop it.), add soy sauce, oyster sauce, fish sauce, and a little bit of sugar. Then when the meat is almost done add some water, just to create a little bit of sauce. Not too much water, though. Maybe 100ml – 200ml, depending on how much meat. When the meat is just finished, add a handful of holy basil leaves and give it a couple of stirs. Serve over fresh-cooked jasmine rice. If you like, add a sunny-side-up fried egg or two to top it off. The egg yolk will then run down the rice and meat which makes it taste extra yummy. Enjoy!
This dish is simple and tasty if you like spicy food and takes about 10 mins to make. I make it maybe once a week. Because it doesn’t take time to prepare. And I like spicy food, so. And you can now buy holy basil in some supermarkets as well, which makes it super convenient for those who fancy cooking this dish themselves without taking a trip to Chinatown. And if you love preparing Asian food you will already have soy sauce, oyster sauce, fish sauce, etc. in your kitchen. Then the rest of the ingredients you can easily buy in the supermarket. You can buy jasmine rice, fish sauce, noodles, coconut milk, chili pastes, and many more in supermarkets nowadays. I rarely go to Chinatown myself. I buy most of my Asian ingredients and produce in almost anywhere. But once a week or once a month even, I do go to Chinese/Thai shop to buy the necessarily ingredients and produce in one go since I know I will use them daily. And also, I can find everything I need in one place. But if you don’t cook Asian food that often like me you will be just fine, buying those ingredients in a supermarket nearby.
I love fashion as much as I love acting and writing. I dress the way I like it and that I think it’s cool. I think fashion is one of the creative ways to express yourself. Be unique. Fashion is art. And I love art & design. So, I use fashion to communicate and to be myself. I feel me when I dress in the outfits that I feel they suit my lifestyle, personality, attitude, and the like. So fashion is more than just clothes, shoes, accessories, etc. You can use fashion to get your message across, make an impact, unite people, and many more. The word FASHION may sound superficial. But it has great values in so many aspects. Therefore, I love fashion and I love expressing myself through fashion.
I had Asian food, summer rolls for lunch with a glass of rosé wine. I made the spring rolls myself. It’s delicious and fresh. That’s why I love cooking because it gives me the opportunity to create a healthy, yummy dish full of quality produce and ingredients. Preparing good food for myself is one of the activities I love doing and spending my time with. It’s very enjoyable as well, being in the kitchen and trying to create a savory dish. It’s like giving myself a gift or pampering myself with good food. So, whenever I have time to cook I do like to devote my time walking around in the supermarket (even though I don’t like shopping) or market looking for quality produce and ingredients for my cooking. Then come home and spend time trying to create a tasty dish that I like. Then sit down and enjoy it with a glass of red wine or whatever wine that it’s suitable for the type of dish that I’m having.
I love rosé wine and red wine – not so much white wine, unless I want to drink it along with a seafood or fish dish. When I buy wine I like to read its label what type of food it is good for. And this rosé wine says that it is good for spicy Asian dishes. So I bought it since I do like spicy food and I like to eat tasty Asian food almost every day. So this rosé wine seems to be a perfect match for Asian food. So I had to try it. It’s very fresh & fruity which I think it goes along well with spicy food. And it’s also excellent for the sunny weather, I think. I just like having a glass of cold rosé when the sun is high up in the sky. Just to celebrate the summertime.
Enjoying my lunch with an ice-cold glass of rosé wine.
I feel like living in the countryside when I see beautiful nature. It calms me down a lot. But, of course, if I want to pursue a career in film & TV as an actress and filmmaker I have to live in the city where everything happens. But deep down, I do want to live in a rural, peaceful place, so that I can enjoy the wonderful nature on a daily basis. I can do that in London, too. But then, I have to go to park every day. And I don’t really have time for that. Actually, I do live next to the park (Wimbledon and Putney Commons. I live just not too far from Wimbledon Common Golf Club.). So, maybe, I don’t really have an excuse not to go to park every day. But that is not the same like living in the countryside. You know what I mean 🙂
Another dream place I want to live is by the ocean or lake, canal, or just by the water. I don’t know. I think it’s very romantic. I also just love sitting and staring at the sea and appreciating my life, watching the sun disappear below the horizon, and inhaling the fresh seabreeze. The vast emptiness, the nothingness, the indefinite space that I can’t see beyond it, the silence, and similar, give me the illusion of eternity. And philosophical questions start to pop up in my mind. It makes me wonder about life, human, our existence on earth, etc. It really helps me get away from all the distractions from my surroundings and gives me a special place to reconsider, rethink, and focus. Unfortunately, London isn’t near an ocean. So sometimes, I go to Brighton, Kent, and the like, just to experience a different world and to sit and stare at the sea, pretty much.
I have just made a new teaser for my upcoming horror film, Nightmare in Hell. I have added some scary music. So, this time, I think the teaser looks more interesting and terrified than the previous ones. I just used free music. Why not? It’s an indie film. So, whatever I can use for free I will do it. Then the next step, I will create a poster for it. Again, I will make it myself. But not today. I’m done for today. I will read or watch some movies and relax. Hope you like the new teaser with music 🔥👻👿
Today, I will spend time working on my film, Nightmare in Hell. Maybe I will add some scary sound to the teaser. Anyway, I will work on the project the whole day. I want to start shooting soon. So I must effectively work on it whenever I can. As I said before, this film will be made professionally with cast & crew and a real DOP (cameraman) – not me. But I’m not gonna hire an army of film crew. Just the people that I think I really need, to keep the costs down as much as possible. It’s a low-budget film that is based on an unexplained event, after all. So I have to be careful what I am gonna spend the money on. I start planning now, actually, who will do what, how many people I need to work behind the scenes, how many actors, how long it’s gonna take shooting the movie, how long with the post-production editing, where to submit my film, and so fort. It is very important that I have a control over my project for each step of the way. It makes me see things more clear and how realistic it is, to make it happen. Otherwise, I will be so overwhelmed and stressful if I don’t plan it well beforehand. And then, I may give it up all together since I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. So, it’s crucial that I know what I’m doing and how I’m gonna perform it. I end up working 9 to 5, eventually. So, it’s a full time job anyway. I also have to attend acting classes, go to different film festivals and events, and so on. That’s why I have to manage my time well, to be able to have time to do all that. Today, I’ll see how far I can get my filmmaking project done.
I went on a shopping spree all day long today. I have not shopped new clothes for a very long time. I just spend my money on food, acting classes, my filmmaking project, and anything else but clothes. Also, when I have to work on set I can’t really dress my own outfits anyway. Most of the time, I have to wear the clothing the costume department has for me. So, I often don’t use my own apparel. Therefore I forget to buy new clothes. But I love fashion. And the weather is nice and sunny day by day. It makes me feel like buying new summer clothes, to celebrate the season. So today’s the day. I bought new cowboy ankle boots in brown, beige cardigan, a pair of pants, sandals, and some tops. And that’s enough for now. I can’t wait to wear them soon. I tend to buy bohemian fashion clothes and rock ‘n’ roll style. I do have some cute dresses and outfits. So, they are not all jeans/denim and raw look. Now I feel renewed. It is my way of giving myself a gift once in a while or when I have accomplished something – big or small. It gives me a new energy to continue to work hard. And I have neglected it for sometime. From now on, I have to remember to pamper myself for every little goal I have reached.
Before I went shopping, I went to Hyde Park first. It was so sunny today. It would be a waste of time not to stop by Hyde Park and have a walk around it, to enjoy the nice weather. I was on my way to Oxford Street anyway.
Sometimes, I like European movies better than American films. There’s something unique about European films that you don’t really see in American movies. I just can’t explain. Maybe because I live in Europe. And also maybe because I see American movies everywhere. So I get used to it. Then, when I watch something different that has nothing to do with America, I see things in a new perspective which fascinates me. The Danish Girl has received many good reviews. So, it must be an excellent movie. But since I am straight so I thought, maybe this film is not for me. But when I browsed through Netflix one evening searching for an interesting film to watch, I stumbled upon it. Then I thought to myself, why not? I shall try to watch it. And it turned out to be a fantastic film. It made me miss Denmark all the more. Even though Britain is also in Europe like Denmark, but these two countries are totally different in, almost, every way. It’s difficult to describe. I just think, the Danish culture, mentality, way of life, and so on, are very much unlike England. You have to try to live in Scandinavia for a while, to notice a lot of differences. But of course, each country has its own identity which should be kept intact as much as possible.
Back to The Danish Girl, I think, it’s a film for everyone. It’s not just for homosexual. It has universal themes that we all can relate to: Love, courage, and be yourself. In fact, I have watched many good gay/lesbian movies that were equally good, which were also for everybody. Here’s a list of some of the films:
- The Danish Girl
- Boys Don’t Cry
- Brokeback Mountain
- Dog Day Afternoon
- Kiss of the Spider Woman
And this is a list of some of the best European films I have seen:
- A Clockwork Orange
- The Cook, the Thief, His Wife & Her Lover
- Betty Blue
- Wings of Desire (Der Himmel über Berlin)
- Breaking The Waves
- Monty Python and the Holy Grail
- The Danish Girl
- The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (I consider it a European movie anyway since it’s based on a Swedish novel. And I read the novel in Danish before the movie was made. The book was very captivating to read, especially when you read it in its original language Swedish/Danish. I have never read it in English version. Stieg Larsson, he had such a unique writing style that kept you turning pages.)
- A Fish Called Wanda
Just woke up a while ago, preparing my breakfast (actually lunch) which was smoked salmon bun with blue cheese (I love blue cheese), listening to morning music, then I’m ready for a new day. I got back home around 2 am from filming. It was a long journey home. Then I went to bed around 3 or 4 am this morning and got up around 8:30 am. I didn’t sleep that much. But, it’s ok. I don’t have to be on set today. So I can relax. I was running and screaming all night long on set. Even after the director shouted “Cut, cut, cut!”, I still continued to run and scream because my own scream overpowered his voice. Then some people who already stopped running and screaming were laughing and telling me that they stop shooting now, so you can stop. I was laughing at myself as well. It was a fun shoot anyway. I had to run, scream, and fall, in the snow and bad weather all day long for several days in another film back in winter earlier this year. So, I’m getting used to it now. The weather in the previous movie was also very tough and we had to wear spring/summer clothes, so that at some point I thought my body was going to surrender to the freezing condition. But I survived it. Now I know how it was like for Leonardo Dicaprio and the rest of cast & crew during the filming “The Revenant”, the toughest film shoot ever, perhaps.
So, I really need to rest today. I also have to catch up with some tasks. Well, I must see what assignments I will get them done first today. And then just chill out for the rest of the day. Yeah, I think, I will do that.
I have come to the point where I’m not sure whether or not I want to make the film myself or just sell the manuscript? Making film is a big challenge for me. Maybe not quite. I did make my first short film and write the script for it in no time at all. I also directed, shot, and edited the movie myself. I think, the most original screenplay and easy to write comes from an original idea (of course) that spontaneously springs to your mind. Or some stories that you have in your mind, or know very well for a long time waiting to be told which makes the plot unique and original since no one knows it better than you. So, they can’t tell the story the way you do. Or, you just love a specific subject so much that you feel fun writing about it in your own way. That’s why I just write and write.I don’t read books about writing. Heck, I don’t even care about my grammar. But of course when I have to sell the finished screenplays the grammar has to be correct. But before then, I will just write whatever I want to write without fear of embarrassing myself about my grammar. I don’t care if everyone will like it either. But there must be some people that will like it. And that’s enough for me.
But since I’m also busy working on movie sets myself, attending acting classes, martial arts classes which I haven’t attended it for a long time now because I’ve lots to do, so maybe I’d be better off just write and sell the scripts. I don’t know yet. I must wait and see. Because, I still have a strong desire to make and produce my own films. So, my interest in filmmaking is still there. It hasn’t gone anywhere. I just don’t think I have time to do it. I will just take a little step a day. So I can digest it slowly and see how badly I want it done.